Saturday, December 5, 2009

GOD IS AND ALL IS WELL.........

The word stamp that is to my left right now on my Emboss Resist card, has become one of my very favorites in the last few years. Let me start off this post by saying that I don't call it A Stamper's Diary for nothin.....I really pour my heart out here and if that kind of thing makes you uncomfortable, you may want to exit now. For the last three years or so, actually maybe even 4 or 5, I have felt pretty dry spiritually. I think we go thru times of loving God passionately and feeling HIM almost constantly, to times of severe drought where at times, all I could say is "God is, and all is well" to get myself thru. I blame it on menopause....cuz menopause has big shoulders - us women have been blaming menopause for years now.....there must be some truth to it!! Anyway, just recently, I have started to FEEL God again. Was God on vacation for the last 5 years. I think not. I know not. God is always there, it's just LIFE that makes us check out from time to time I think. But you know even in my times of deepest doubt and confusion, I could always say with complete sincerity, "God is and all is well." Breaking through, which I have been doing lately almost makes the drought worth it, cuz lately I have had several times of feeling intense closeness to God, almost like HE is sitting in the room with me keeping me company. This is my theory of what happens, or at least what has happened to me. Somehow, no matter how much we know we are wrong to do this, we think if we follow God, life will be easy.
Then when it's NOT easy, like things don't turn out perfectly, and everything
does not go our way, we sort of start building a wall of bitterness. I think I have been constructing this thing for years. Hey, life is hard. And I have probably led a charmed life compared to many, but somehow, I still constructed this wall that said, "HEY listen God, I tried to do everything right...I raised my kids just how I thought you wanted me to raise them, now why are they struggling so much?" And slowly~ each one of my kids has made their peace with God and followed after HIM, just like I prayed all those years, but there were detours along the way, and now as adults, they struggle with trials I would just not choose for them health wise and even in other ways......and I guess I was shaking my fist at God and saying WHY??? You know what, God can take it when we shake our fist at HIM. Remember when one of your kids said "I hate you" when they were young? I can still feel the pain thinking about it, but it never made me stop loving them and I always knew they didn't mean it. Same thing with God. HE has been patiently waiting for me to come around, and lately, little by little, I am coming around. The intense worry that I struggle with has more and more turned into me saying, "God this one is WAY too big for me, Take my child,
and turn their mourning into joy, turn their ashes into beauty, I cannot do it for them." I am learning to let go and let GOD. And isn't that the whole reason we walk this earth? To grow closer and closer to HIM? Count it all JOY when trials come upon you......HE SAYS THAT!!! WELL.....this morning I had an incredible break through with GOD. Note the FRIENDSHIP card to my left. How many of you have had a friendship where you just KNOW God brought that person into your life at just the right time and they become a life long confidant, friend, sister, companion in this journey.....I am so blessed to have this person in my life. This morning this person texted me and asked me to pray for her adult children.....and could not share details but just said that they need prayers more then ever. I felt the strongest urge to just stop everything I was doing and pray. Lord, please be with these beautiful children of yours, whatever they are going thru let them feel your everlasting arms everywhere and all around. Take them in your arms and rock them. Hold them close and tell them everything is going to be okay. Heal them. Touch them. Walk with them through this valley. Bring them up. Bring them out. Make them shine. Wrap your loving arms around them and don't let them go. Be with my friend who is closer then a sister.....give her your peace that passes all understanding. AND AS I PRAYED for this friend who I love like a sister, I felt HIS arms rocking me, holding me, and I heard HIM saying,
I am still here Karen, I have never left you, I have never forsaken you, I am waiting for you to return to me, HEART AND ALL....I will always be here.....and I wept and I prayed and I wept and I prayed and when I stood up, I felt like God was lifting me up, and I am back on my feet again, and I am saying, "I am sorry God, I am sorry I ever doubted you - I am sorry I ever mistrusted you, I love you, I am back, HOLD ME CLOSE, don't ever let me go, rock me in your everlasting arms......with renewed passion and newfound JOY, I can say and say it with conviction, "GOD IS, AND ALL IS WELL. " Until next time, remember, GOD LOVES YOU and wants to hold YOU in his everlasting arms.

21 comments:

Karen W said...

Wow I'm glad your dry spell is coming to an end and these are just gorgeous. So elegant and pretty.

Brenda said...

Very touching Karen - and the cards are very beautiful.

Annette said...

Karen - your artwork is just beautiful. Thank you for sharing it along with your journey story. It warmed my heart to hear how God is always there for each of us. He waits for us - and how it is always in His time.
I read your words this morning as you mentioned your children and your friends children and cried as I pray constantly for my children. They struggle with illness and trials that cross their paths - and as parents we think what can we do? Then I am reminded we can do the greatest thing - Pray and Pray some more and know that God loves them more than we do.
Thank you for all that you share.
You are a blessing to your family and friends.
Hope you had a nice Thanksgiving.

Kathleen said...

Karen, I am so blessed by you. Your art work is beautiful. I have enjoyed it for a long time. But your honest, heartfelt seeking is more beautiful yet. I pray God's richest blessings on your journey with him. Perhaps someday our paths will cross when I come to Ohio to visit my son. I too know the pain of living far away geographically from my child and holding him in prayer when my arms cannot. May Father God be all you need in these days for yourself and your children and all others you love.

Kathy

Butternut Sage Designs said...

oh my Karen, I love your post today. WOW! SOmetimes a post like that is confirmation. I am so blessed to have read it. Thanks for the lesson...He is using you today! Blessings~Donna

Cindy Coutts said...

You sure know how to make a girl cry Karen. I'm all too familiar with spiritual droughts. Thank you for pouring out your spirit and sharing your heart with us. You've helped many of us, more than you know. God bless you.

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Carol Dee said...

Karen
God is and All is Well. What a wonderful stamp. I do need to look for one to use myself. Such a powerful reminder that we must Let Go and Let God. Your post reduced me to tears. Tears of joy. Tears of Understanding. Been there, done that kind :) Keep posting. Keep praying, Keep loving.
Big Hugs and wishes for the best possible 2010...CAROL DEE

Cindy Coutts said...

Karen, your post is familiar to a lot of us in a spiritual drought at times and I can definitely tell this is from your heart. Thank you for opening up and putting in writing what I know I think and feel much of the time. Hugs and God bless you.

Francie G. said...

Karen, I am so glad I decided to stop what I was doing and check out your blog! Thank you so much for sharing. I needed that! I am deeply touched! Your creations are very beautiful

Anonymous said...

I have just finished browsing through your blog and I am in awe of your cards. All of them are so beautiful! I will pop in again. TFS.

Michelle
http://michelle-pinkpaperparadise.blogspot.com/

Laura VanVleet said...

Your cards are so inspirational, Karen! I love your work! I left you a blog award on my blog. Stop by to pick it up!

Anonymous said...

God has blessed you and you, in turn, are blessing others. Your words in this entry are my own...just didnt know how to say them as eloquently. Thank you.

Beautiful cards, too! esther

Grace said...

Hi Karen! I love visiting your blog! Not only are your cards incredible beyond belief, but your words always touch my heart! You share your heart so openly and I loved reading your journey this morning! I think we all have our dry seasons and it's always us who moved... not God. You are so right... He IS, and all is well! TFS! Hugs!!!

faithstamps said...

Karen, I followed you this morning from Splitcoast to find out about your black magic technique, then laughed out loud about your "skills" in the tech world (I am horrible)...which led me to what's important, your journal entry on walking with God. All of this occurred immediately after my prayer time. I think God had a message there for me! THANK YOU for sharing from your heart...it's not all about stamping, but it is about how he uses our love of stamping to connect us. HE IS SO AWESOME!! Keep doing what you're doing...it is good.

Cathy said...

wow. I have never been on your site until today. I clicked over from Mary Fish's site and read your post for Dec 5. I can't tell you how much you sound like my life right now. God is amazing! Thank you for typing the words that I needed to say to myself!! hugs from a sister in Christ!

Holly said...

thank you Karen for sharing this particular post....all of them are wonderful and I love you! This one made me cry and reminded me of something I really need to think on more often...what my husband said when he was courting me; that I am a daughter of God and our responsibility is to Him. thank you for beautiful tears you helped me shed and for sharing your beautiful heart.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for this post. I just happened by but really needed to read it. I too am in the same drought with God with adult children hurting and struggling. Thanks again, it brought tears and new understanding of who God really is.

Christie Daugherty said...

I just love your style! Your convention cards were AMAZING!!!

Christie Daugherty said...

I love your style. Your convention cards were AMAZING!
www.stampshacklady.blogspot.com

CSThelen said...

Awesome, Ms Barber, that's all I can say. Thanks for sharing your walk with the Lord, may you always be aware of His blessings, you have blessed me today,

Carol in Balto.